Salve.

A personal question: have you, as gays and lesbians, ever been attracted to a member of the opposite sex? As in having sex with them? Dreaming of this while not sleeping?

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"Ye be warned, here be monsters."

Never try the Atkins diet. My personal trainer put me in it and it is killing me. The few people I knew who have been on this at some point of their lives tell me it's very tiring. Yes it is, and combining that with nearly obsessive or maniacal attitude towards the gym. Hell, if I'm going to live on mere proteins the purpose of which is to build up muscles, fact forbid if I don't take the most out of it. And so I am wearing myself out. Well... I'm willing to give this thing a go. If it works better than the usual diet, I promise to consider going on with this. If it works a whole lot better than the normal one, I suppose I could continue with this for another month as the work load is going to decrease at the end of the month (sorry Eliot, but May is the cruelest month for a student).

I have also been keeping a food diary lately. I have concluded that this year the Coca Cola Company's Fanta section will send me a Christmas card.

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I've been considering to move to a studio to become even more unsocial and run away from the constant threat of roommates. It quite a depressing feeling to want to move in with someone when you have no one. I went to have lunch with two of my Polytechnic classmates yesterday and listening to them going on about their boyfriends, and what kind of a house they would want (the Finnish dream along the lines "punainen talo ja perunamaa" seems appealing to them) and how they would want kids one day... it all made me want to become invisible. Not because I would have been ashamed of myself but because I am not strong enough to achieve the same thing. Good news to those of you who have been forced to see me banging my head to the wall every time I talk about Her: I am beginning to get over Her. Not all the way yet but perhaps in a while. Not that I would turn Her down if She showed interest in me but... I need to stop banging my head to the wall! I am finally accepting that. Nice... it only took two and a half years. Nice going, Splenetic!

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Okay, we finally went through the entire new BodyCombat programme today. The grande finale seems to a bit tricky after the first time. The kata is all weird. I have to practise that.

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Playing now: "Good To Me" by Re-con & Squad E. "Rain Down Love" is another sure to stick in my head.