Every year. Why do I have to go there every year? Fuck I'm going, not after today.
She was nice and clear when we spoke for five minutes in the beginning but the examination... I feel like I've been raped. I'm sore and I hate myself for not being able to tell her to be more gentle, that not everyone is used to being penetrated like that, with or without lubricant. And the way she "dug" with that ultrasound dildo.. that really hurt.
And for this merriment I got to pay sixty euros.
Fuck I'm going to a single gynaecologist again until I have a bloody good reason to!
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Right, the Gratefulness Project... Fine, I'm now so very grateful for being one more day closer to autumn/university/Polytechnic/my death... take a pick (hint: the extremes are my favourites at the moment).
2 kommenttia
Rain
14.8.2007 20:59
Not all of them are brutal. I promice...
I have had bad ones who hurt me, and very good ones who were close to turning me on, despite the awkward situation.
The wand is uncomfortable for me as well, I think its proportions are quite ghastly...
Sorry it was such a bitch. :(
Splenetic
14.8.2007 22:13
Cheers. Too bad it's so difficult to sort out the dominatrices out of the nice ones. Anyway, now that it's stopped hurting I've been more able to make rationalisations of the situation. I'm just not going there again. I'll just try to find someone else. Why do all the private sector gynaecologists in this town have to be working in that same medical centre?
And I'm sure the wand was designed by a man or a dyed-in-the-wool straight woman. The whole myth of vaginal penetration has gone way out of proportion, as well.
Now I just have to wait for the leaking to stop. To hell with this shit...