A week.

It's been a while since my last posting, hasn't it? I've been relatively busy with tutoring and with university. I just came back from an exam, which against all odds, I might pass, which in turn means that I don't have to go through the same course for the third time, which means that I'm now two courses short of getting my Bachelor's degree!

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Apart from studying to a seemingly unbeatable examination, I have also been building up my gradu panic which has now attained astronomical levels. By 'astronomical' I don't of course mean that it's *that* important; it's not. It's the panic part that's getting out of hand. I'm not afraid of writing the thesis: that's going to be the easy part. What I do fear is the selection of the subject. You see, it's not only the grade that will be in the final record but the title of the thesis as well. And with this record I am supposed to apply for work. Hence, the title (and therefore the subject) is supposed to have certain requirements filled before I start writing anything. The subject is supposed to be up to date in order to be taken seriously and to have some kind of prestige and so that the thesis will appear to be worth something. The subject is also to be preferably media sexy (to get the study some attention amongst all the other theses) and it should be possibly provocative (for standing out, as well as to create conversation within the academic circle close to me, that is supervisor and the department staff etc.). The subject should also be something I find interesting myself. The subject is to also be something I can develop further one way or another in my forthcoming lisenciate thesis, perhaps also in the doctorate (becoming a PhD is the highest accomplishment I can achieve, so I thrive for that; and if I'm going to bind the Master's thesis somehow to the doctorate, the subject should be something that can be taken seriously and something that gives me prestige as an expert in that particular area). What else should the subject be? A lot of things, I'm sure, but right now I'm out of options. But don't worry, I'm sure I'll come up with a dozen qualities more during the weekend. But as a conclusion: THE SUBJECT SHOULD BE BLOODY GOOD!!!

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On Thursday I had a relatively bad day and I ended up neglecting my cool exterior by having an argument with a male exchange student. He was looking for the Student Union premises and I happened to be one he encountered. I agreed to show him the place as I had to go there myself anyway in fifteen minutes time. All would have been well if he hadn't started asking my place of residence and my name and my e-mail address and so on. Plus he had -as most exchange students tend to have- a very uncomfortable way of coming very close to me and what's worse, touch me. I think I told him twice not to touch me before he got it. Anyway, he asked if we could be friends and I right away told him that unless you're gay, the answer is no. I ended up ranting and raving about why I don't want to be friends with men. He just couldn't see my point, but I suppose he -like other men- are raised in a way it's impossible. Now his talking to me every time he sees me. He just won't get the word no. Next time I think I may end up shouting at him and making a scene with the worst kind of sarcasm I can come up with. Perhaps he will then get my point.