So... over four years has passed with me drooling after a straight woman. Now I am finally beginning to be able to fall for others. The problem, however, is that they, even though I really would care for them immensely, they would still all be second best choices compared to Her. Is this how it'll be for the rest of my life? That even though I loved them, and cared for them, was willing to sacrifice mych for them, and be truely happy with them, they would still be the second best? Is this what happens to other people, too? That some people just can't forget the first true love no matter how unrequited it is/was?
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Juksteri
3.2.2010 00:20
I was once, long time ago, in love with a nice straight young man who became my friend. I then thought no one would ever feel the same. He got married with a nice woman and I was even invited for their wedding. But then we went different ways and didn't see each other for years. Until once when we bumped into each other. I had forgotten his name.
Sure you'll meet other good people. If you really think about it, there are billions of people. I hope you don't think the choice is too narrow for you, do you?
Nice lips, btw.
Splenetic
3.2.2010 15:36
I'm glad to hear there's some hope, though I'm pretty sure I won't be forgetting Her name any time soon (and no, I don't have it tattooed on me ;D).
Sure, there are about six billion people. Half of those are women. About 2 to 5 (okay, optimistic) percent of those are practising lesbians or bisexuals, which leaves an approximate of 60 to 150 million. And considering they are pretty nicely scattered all over the world, I won't meet most of them ever. So, for an not-much-travelling-introvert-bitch, that leaves... I think I want to stop this calculation right here. The result of this (minus all the other reasons of non-availability, such as that they are already taken) is too depressing to write down. And this had nothing to do with personalities. So is it too narrow?
About the lips. I found is as an avatar some time ago on some book blog commentator. I, too, they were so fantastic I just had to save the picture. Especially since it reminds of those unrequited crushes/loves I've had. I just wonder how it's done: PhotoShop or real, time-consuming make up. A mix, probably, but it's still pretty sweet (damn, I tried not to use the pun...!).