There is only one thing, and one thing alone, that can restore my so-called normality after being as angry as I was yesterday: jigsaws. I spent eight hours last night making a puzzle of Colosseum of 1000 pieces. I now have an almost finished (only the sky is missing) and, more importantly, fluorescent Colosseum jigsaw on my desk (see the picture below). When I realised it really does glow in the dark I just couldn't bear the idea of going to bed and be so very aware that it would look so cool to have it finished and see how it really appears in the dark. So I stayed up 'till 3.30 a.m. last night just to see it. And it did look very nice. Too bad the phosphorus doesn't last so long; I could watch it much longer but the outlines start fading quite soon after the lights have been turned off. I also have The Eiffel Tower from the same Clementoni puzzle collection. I’m going to make that next week when I have a little more free time.
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And as for the cause of my outburst last night… I can either dwell on it forever or I can do something about it. I am going to do something about it. That should make me feel a whole lot better, knowing that I’ve had some effect even if it doesn’t affect the outcome relatively much. Let us just hope I’m able to stick to the case and not get sidetracked or, fact forbid, angry again. That certainly mustn’t happen.
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I just read through what I’ve been writing and realised that this is exactly why people don’t consider my English as fluent as it should be. Actually, I could speak exactly the kind of English with all the colloquial equivalents for the formal pet words I have, but I just don’t want to. It’s boring to speak like everyone else, don’t you think? If you have a large vocabulary and you’re able to (more or less) pronounce them correctly, does it really matter whether they’re formal or informal or something in between as long as you’re understood. And it’s kind of a personality statement to choose to speak the way I do. If some forms of assimilation or intrusive r’s don’t come naturally to me, why force them? It ain’t gonna sound no more natural. See, I can use speech type of language if I want to; “ain’t”, “gonna”, double negation… And at least I use the weak forms for auxiliaries all the time.
