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Blogit: The Other World  Thesis thingies for a change.
Kirjoitettu: 08.02.2010, 14:50:07 | I, the undersigned, have managed to come up with a relatively satisfying thesis topic, with a little inspiration from a certain woman. I'm otherwise fine with it.. but there's just one big problem. The instructor will be one of the male teachers, one in particular who gives me the creeps. I don't know what it is but I really do not trust him or want to spend any more time with him as I have to.
This is one of the drawbacks of a small department.
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Kirjoitettu: 05.02.2010, 21:55:19 | In yet another attempt to be social, I volunteered to help with organising and executing the student union's anniversary festivities.
.... It ain't working. It seems that all the others are close friends and activists and I'm just an extra pair of hands. There really is no getting in the inner circle when one is already formed. Perhaps I should just leave these attempts alone next time one presents itself to me, since they're clearly not working. | |
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Kirjoitettu: 03.02.2010, 15:26:04 | I am now facing similar problems as those of which Mopsi has been talking about in some of his previous entries. My student allowance is in the end. Finished. Caput. Finaalissa. But as I am still studying fulltime, I need to familiarise myself with the local allowance system. I already filled in the application for living allowance, the next step will be a call and then a visit to the town's social and healthcare division. Quite frankly, considering the amount of taxation they've taken from me (and given some of it to churches without my consent!!!) I'm entitled to have it. Too bad there are no jobs available; now I wouldn't have to worry about Kela's income limits so much. Actually, no: the living allowance does depend on income and the main allowance from the town even more so. Okay, nevermind.
Good that I was taken in custody when I was 17 as I had to pay monthly visits to the local social and healthcare division then. So at least I have some experience on the matter.
Let's see what happens... I won't hold my hopes too up, though. I'm sure they find some way to get away with it or at least reduce any allowance. After all, they are the bureaucratic professionals, not me. | |
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Kirjoitettu: 01.02.2010, 22:59:23 | So... over four years has passed with me drooling after a straight woman. Now I am finally beginning to be able to fall for others. The problem, however, is that they, even though I really would care for them immensely, they would still all be second best choices compared to Her. Is this how it'll be for the rest of my life? That even though I loved them, and cared for them, was willing to sacrifice mych for them, and be truely happy with them, they would still be the second best? Is this what happens to other people, too? That some people just can't forget the first true love no matter how unrequited it is/was?
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Amidst a political identity crisis.
Kirjoitettu: 23.01.2010, 14:10:37 | I've been having political constipation for quite a while now. Lately it has turned into stone and intoa more chronic political identity crisis. I've been trying to analyse it, to try and pinpoint the cause of it several times with little success*. Here is my final try. May not be rational, most certainly it is not thorough but since it's basically an intellectual and personal thing I don't really care. I just need to articulate this somewhat reasonably and coherently so I can make up a Finnish version for the Greens' member manager (it's time to renew the membership).
First of all, I'd like to thank the Greens. Their party of human rights and environmental care has made a difference in Finland. Environmental issues have been added to (almost) all parties' programme to some extent, something that would have been unheard of twenty years ago. You have also managed to accomplish promotion of human rights, especially those of the LGBT community. Again, I am (and will be) grateful for that. Something, however, has changed.
My path towards the Greens was not by my own conscious choice. As a teenager I became more aware of the things I saw were wrong in one way or another, and one of those things was the neglect and abuse of nature. I tried my best to get my parents to recylce, and especially avoid trashing. Eventually I also managed to make a small difference in air quality: my father was a smoker and he used to smoke indoors. My first accomplishment was to make him go smoke in the kitchen by the air conditioner when smoking indoors. The next step was not-in-the-house: outside or in the "Hall". I learned my first manipulation lesson by getting allies with the rest of the family as they would do anything to annoy my father, especially my mother. Even though I was more conserned with cancer than environment, I was labelled a Green (and, naturally, mocked because of it: "viherpiipertäjä" was a very familiar name for me in my childhood home). With increasing interest in human rights issue after my personal revelation about my own sexuality and what difference that -as well as any minority membership- makes in life.
It wasn't until the year 2008 when I became more interest in politics and started to follow the events and decisions more regularly. That is also when I became an official Green. I wanted to show concrete support to their goals and perhaps to find a group to belong to even. The road to hell was, however, indeed paved with good intentions. With every word I read, every decision I saw seemed to trash my idea of the party completely. Now, I do understand that being in the government is about getting an actual grip to power, to make a difference, unlike being in the opposition (they really should make the previous opposition co-operation obligatory again) where you can now only shout things without them having any effect on the government. Furthermore, being in the government is abbout compromise: "I'll scratch your back this time if you scratch my back later." This is where the crisis began: what are we as individuals and as different groups within the party willing to sacrifice to get something else through? As said, even though I am grateful for the in-family adoption right for the LGBT, I am not sure I can live with what has been sacrificed to gain that. I do not like the university reform of which I have been very vocal about. I do not like that you said nothing about the copyright proposal; it was up to Stefan Wallin to withdraw it from the table (no offense to Wallin, he's one of the few men that have a temporary free pass from their sex in my eyes at the moment). I most certainly do not like how more and more things have been piled on communal services without giving any resources to survive from them. One slightly marginal but important decision was seen in a documentary "Liikkumavara" by Annika Grof (why was it placed in TV2 around midnight?!): the increase of daycare and health fees (thank you, Asko-Seljavaara, the only politician inane enough to tell what they *really* thought about the law). All in all: I do not like the way you have been licking Kokoomus's arse after going for a dumb.
This -and many others I did not mention, such as the stance on the possibility of a sixth nuclear power plant application being introduced to the givernment- is why we must part ways, at least for the time being.
I will not lose all hope on you, howeve; I refuse to do so. There is still the next Parliament elections that can make a difference. Until then: so long, and thanks for all the fish.
*This is the third version of the same topic and I still don't think I've covered all the topics and subjects to this disappointment I should have. Well, now it's noted. Even if I did come up with other things, I will not be adding them here later; if I did, there would be no end to the editing process.
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Random bursts.
Kirjoitettu: 18.01.2010, 21:12:41 | "Tule paikalle luomaan kontakteja!"
That is what is said why to go to a recruiting event at the university this week. What does it even mean? How exactly does one "create networks" by wandering from one point to the next with no particular interest but finding something to do the next summer? And, of course, the panel discussions and lectures include, again, to make students graduate and start their own business. I mean, this just sounds SO ridiculous especially at this time. We, the students here now are the children who grew up during the first recession and we saw its effects in our environment or perhaps even saw first hand what it did to small businesses if we (as I did) were brought up by parents in their own small business. We also experienced the enormous cuts in social and educational pilars of the society. And now the same people who brought that upon us are trying to make us want to put ourselves in the danger of the government doing the same thing as last time: betraying all those who had used their own savings to start their own business and are now left to survive with social wellfare. Are these people amnesiac?!
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Kirjoitettu: 17.01.2010, 22:31:12 | Oh, it's been a week since I wrote anything. I suppose that tells of one thing: relatively silent first week at school.
The first Accounting lectures began. I find them surprisingly interesting. I guess one of the reasons for this is that I have no gnawing voice in my head constantly asking "why do you think you have any right to spend your life studying something so useless", unlike when I'm sitting on Post-colonial literature course or Sociolinguistics course. Interesting but from the Friedmanian point of view, utterly useless and unworthy of any euros. I really do not like this division of economically uselful subjects and the rest that don't really even need any name, let alone resources. I mean, who needs "culture" anyway?
(To cheer me up, below I have a picture of a really beautiful jellyfish, Sminthea arctica. Cute, isn't it?)
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 About fucking time...!
Kirjoitettu: 10.01.2010, 09:57:38 | The new term and first lectures begin tomorrow. Aahh... about time! One more week in solitude in clumsy attempts to have some kind on intelligent conversations with books and I would have dulled exponetially. I am going to spend lots of extra time at the university just for being able to do so.
I am so happy I've had Xena DVDs to keep me company!
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More summer job anxiety.
Kirjoitettu: 02.01.2010, 02:32:16 | | So. Do people really have to take any job offered regardless of the terms and conditions of that job? Especially if they've already tried the field and it sucked? And they didn't like it in the first place at all, since that was sort of "any job at any terms" thing the first time around? | |
The Society's Least Wanted, reporting...
Kirjoitettu: 31.12.2009, 01:05:22 | Started the summer job anxiety by searching for jobs at MOL. I mean, what the fuck.. it seems that every job requires a higher education or Polytechnic degree on that particular field. It appears I should be an electrician, a trained pedagogic, an economist in all of its branches, and an outgoing extrovert with a fabulous body, readiness to do pretty much anything or go anywhere anytime the emoployer wants me to, a fucking linguistic genius, not to mention that I should get along with everyone no matter how badly shit-for-brains they are, and I should also have a driver's license for the most common vehicles and a trucking card. In addition I should have about a thousand papers from hygeine to alcohol to criminal record.
FUUUUUUUUCCKK!!! What the fuck I'm supposed to do, huh?! Pretend in job interviews and when the trial's over (if I've managed that far) I'll blow my cover and reveal myself to be a fucking anti-social bitch without any kind of motivation? Yeah, except that I don't want to pretend. Why it's always me who has to change to fit what other people want me to be? Why won't others tolerate different people? It can't be that I'm the only one who can't manage with this precariat system, portfolio career? Right? So why do the others not acknowledge the existence of us less social people. Why should we be superhumans to compensate that one little thing? Why don't we get to be average like social people? | |
Gloomy Friday night.
Kirjoitettu: 26.12.2009, 04:13:18 | Can't sleep. Again. I want to go home, not stay here any longer. But no busses go until Monday. I'm not even sure my brother will take the offer of me paying him for driving me home.
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I don't remember if I've told about my mother's christmas arrangementsfor last night. She made us all go to a party thrown by her boyfriends family. Most of the participants were from his side and since my mother spends so much time with them... well, me and my siblings felt a bit out of place. Especially me. A small space packed with unfamiliar people... My sister tried to explain to me some social basics but failed... or I failed, whatever.
Yes, I do know the main themes what not to talk about but it leaves only the unimportant, mundane, stupid things to talk about.. for the sake of talking! That's the thing I don't understand. Why would I spend time and energy to talk about things that do not communicate anything to the other? If I wanted to get to know to someone, exactly what good does talking about where I go to school and what are my major and minor do? Nothing, in my opinion at least. Okay, perhaps it functions as an opening, a bridge to a more meaningful relationship. The problem with this, of course, is that I just don't care.
Another problem, as came very clear last night, is that I find out things I would not need to know. Because when people talk for the sake of talking and drink alcohol at the same time, they are bound to blurt out some things I find utterly unimportant, perhaps even slightly odd but not in the sense of being interesting. I do understand this combination let's people know more of others, also the awkward things, which in turn let's one make a more informative decision on whether one wants to get to know to the other better or not. My problem with this is the alcohol. I hated being there because everyone else drank alcohol and I really, really hate being surrounded by drunken people, especially in the evening, especially when I'm far from home, and especially when I can't get out on my own (the place was in the middle of the woods 25 kilometres from my mother's place).
To add to all of this, we all had to bring a present to one of the randomly selected guests. Obviously I hadn't even heard of most of them, so when I got the person's name, all I could think of was books. So a book it was: a popular science book, to be more specific. And the person it was addressed to? My mother's boyfriend's daughter's husband's sister. And she most certainly is no scientific knowledge fan. And she behaved like a bloody teen pissis. And looked like one, too.
And me? I got a bottle of "sparkling wine". I appreciate the thought and I can understand the motivation behind it (a Finn above 18 years old = drinks alcohol). I'm just having trouble deciding what to do with it. My sister suggested I put it on a shelf since it's a nice-looking bottle. Yes, it is, but... why would I put a wine bottle on display suggesting I like it when I most certainly do not? In fact, the thought of having alcohol in my apartment is appaling. Not because I would be tempted to drink it (hell no) but... I really don't need a constant reminder of my childhood. Besides, my absolutism is a handicap in Finland. If I say no when offered alcohol, there will be a wave of of 'why's. I'm not ashamed of my past which is the main cause for this but most people would be and therefore the situation would also turn negative. And gradually, I become a pariah, a weirdo, a social hazard in a way. Not fun. Some people seem to think I regard myself better than them because I don't drink. I really cannot express how wrong they are. I think of myself lesser than them because I can't drink alcohol. I would like to be able to take a glass of wine every now and then but I can't since I have a fucking genetic tendency toward alcoholism and my personality isn't helping either.
Fuck this. And fuck you, Dad!
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Kirjoitettu: 22.12.2009, 02:16:52 (Muokattu: 22.12.2009, 04:04:09) | "Tää on taas niin tätä."
Should get up at 6 a.m. to get to the bus station on time. It's now 2 a.m. and as writing usually requires conscious brain functions... Even if I fell asleep right now, I'd still be fucked up to some degree tomorrow. Why is it that when you know you have to get up early you just can't sleep?
EDIT at 3 a.m: Still awake. I'm going to so tired tomorrow...
EDIT at 4 a.m: Wanna guess? I suppose it's time for one of my notorius "wakey, wakey!" marathons again. Shit. This and caffeine to stay awake... a bad combo!
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Another thing I've been wondering for a couple of weeks now. Santa Claus. Why do parents reinforce their relationship to their children by lying to them for years? I mean, Santa as we know him is an American invention. Coca-Cola's invention, to be exact. It serves no other purpose than boosting their sales figures and since then all others have taken advantage on this, too. But why lie to kids? His sole purpose from the parental point of view is that he is some vague authority figure, a dictator, who decides if you've behaved good enough to have presents. Is it that parents play the god-card: shifting the responsibility to something imaginary being the kid doesn't get to question?
The way I see it, this holiday is about spending time with a family, preferably family of your choice (which is not my situation which in turn pisses me off even more than the holiday's commercialism...). This is a time when you give presents to those you care about (again, preferably...), to express the affection, the care, the friendliness. What the hell does a strange man has to do with any of this? Nothing. So why keep it up? Because it's a tradition, it's what has always (and I use the term loosely) been done. Seriously, if we were to do everything as before, we'd still be living in caves wondering if the twinkling lights in the night sky are gods' eyes watching everything we do... and shifting all the blame to them, of course.
And no, I have no bitter memories of the lie being revealed to me in some brutal way. I have no recollection of the time I thought he was real. Actually, my mother -when confronted with this question as a kid and even now!- keeps saying he's real (more or less seriously, I hope...). So as a result I ended up taking the autographs of the two Santas in two years and compared them to each other. Not the same (obviously, since the other Santa was my father's drinking buddy, and the other a friend of my mother's). And still she kept saying Santa's real. I doubt this is the fundamental cause of my trust issues but it sure doesn't help to build a trustful relationship between a parent and a child.
...Perhaps I'll watch 'Grinch'. I wish I had the Bad Santa film... so much nastier and thus funnier. Well, I'll have to settle for Thornton below.
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Kirjoitettu: 19.12.2009, 17:19:39 | This is exactly how I see the world being: first you compete to get to the wheel, then you manage to get rid of your competitors, and then the wheel just keeps going faster and faster until...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fYTJ9v2vsaE&NR=1 | |
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Kirjoitettu: 17.12.2009, 20:17:12 | Positive news, for a change! During my -hopefully- final depressional season starting during summer 2007, I managed to kill my last surviving cactus. I think it died of draught... Anyway, now that I'm feeling better, I decided to give it another go. I have now a nice plate full of new spiky friends, of all sizes, all shapes and many colours (many of them have flowers: orange, red, pink, green, yellow... only blue ones are missing from the lot). I tried to put a picture of them with this post but I encountered technical problems with my cell phone's Bluetooth. I'll try again later.
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 Cephalopod Celluloid!
Kirjoitettu: 15.12.2009, 18:16:36 | That is so clever! And cute, too. :)
http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/science/nature/8408233.stm
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Voi vittu mikä lakiesitys!
Kirjoitettu: 11.12.2009, 14:37:23 (Muokattu: 11.12.2009, 14:37:45) | Tieteentekijöiden liiton ja Professoriliiton yhteinen lausunto hallituksen suunnittelemasta tekijänoikeuslain muutoksesta:
"Tieteentekijöiden liitto on antanut 7.12. opetusministeriölle lausuntonsa hallituksen esityksestä tekijänoikeuslain muuttamiseksi. Liitto vastustaa esitystä ja pitää ehdotusta hyvin ongelmallisena ja epätasapuolisena. Ehdotus ei ole omiaan selkeyttämään oikeustilaa tai parantamaan oikeusvarmuutta, kuten ehdotuksen tavoitteena on ollut. Liitto katsoo, että lainsäädännössä tulee ottaa riittävästi huomioon yliopistoissa tapahtuva tieteellinen tutkimustyö ja siihen kuuluvat erityispiirteet. Tekijänoikeuksien siirtyminen kokonaisuudessaan yliopistoille ei voi missään tapauksessa olla pääsääntö, mikäli tieteen vapaus halutaan turvata. Liitto antoi yhdessä Professoriliiton kanssa asiasta tiedotteen jo tuoreeltaan samana päivänä kuin OPM:n ehdotus tuli julkisuuteen 4.11. Tekijänoikeuslain muutosta vastustava adressi löytyy sivustolta: www.adressit.com/allekirjoitukset/tekijanoikeus"
Eli ensiksi kokkareiden pitää pönkittää keskiluokan lompakkoa entisestään verovähennyksillä pienituloisten kustannuksella, sitten heikennetään väliin vähän työttömien ja pienituloisten sairausturvaa, ja koska yliopistolain muutos pakottaa tieteentekijät EK:n perseennuolijoiksi ei vielä riitä, otetaan kaikilta luovan työn tekijöiltä pois vielä tekijänoikeudet.
MITÄ VITTUA NÄMÄ PELLET TEKEVÄT?! KUKA SAATANA NIITÄ SINNE ÄÄNESTI?! | |
Umm.. reality check?
Kirjoitettu: 09.12.2009, 17:52:35 | tuschman168 said it: "OMFG. It finally happened. I finally lost my ability to distinguish a parody from the real thing. Please someone tell me what this is. I can't tell anymore."
This is one of the comments on this YouTube video called "Just Say No to Sex": http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hn6mIK8G2Vc. The organisation is called College Students Against Sex. The name alone is hilarious. How can you be against sex? It's like saying I'm against gravity! There are things in this world you can get rid of and things you can't and every single person on the video is a living proof of that (though I suspect they try very hard to forget that...). But I seriously think all these people were paid A LOT of money to do this, because "Angela" most certainly is either implicitly against the idea or she's just a bad actor.. or a real college student against sex who just REALLY likes to be in front of the camera. Not to mention that party guy.. if you're reading this, for your edification, let it be noted that your heart is on the other side, kiddo. | |
Finnish censorship.
Kirjoitettu: 05.12.2009, 13:27:59 | | Those of you who were adults when 9/11 took place: do you remember any censorship in radio playlists during the time following the event? I'm currently reading a book on music censorship at the present time and there is a chapter on censoring certain songs/bands from radio playlists. Lots of Beatles and AC/DC, also Metallica, System of a Down, Elton John, the whole Rage against the Machine opus censored... I was just wondering if any songs, that are usually played on air, were taken off. I tried to find playlists from September 2001 but, for instance, Radiomafia's playlists from that month were not there; August was there, October was there, but not September. I'll continue looking other stations' playlist archives. | |
 Päivä ennen kuolemaa.
Kirjoitettu: 02.12.2009, 12:55:45 | Saw the documentary (why named 'documentary'?) last night by accident. What a nice idea! Good that they actually have death in the title, not some euphemism. Of course, that would be weird considering that the whole programme revolves around death. Minus points for the soundtrach: seriously, the only more stereotypical music choices would have been 'Gloomy Sunday' or Albinoni's 'Adagio'. If you missed the programme, go see it at Ruutu.fi (http://www.ruutu.fi/default.asp?videoID=791&vd=11&cc=1).
Anyway, ended up writing two lists last night. One for people I should apologise to and another for people I want to thank. The latter was substantially longer than the former. Now I just need to find the courage to say the things to the people on the lists. Perhaps I should begin with the least frightening person on the Thanks list: my eight and ninth grade maths teacher. At least I could do that via e-mail. :)
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The bank course came handy sooner than expected.
Kirjoitettu: 01.12.2009, 19:34:57 | A good day, for once. Got a real compliment from my teacher today on a literature course; she asked me to explain the plot of a book she hasn't read because "you seem to have read everything". Well, as it turned out, I've never even heard of the book so the plot remained unknown but eventhough she was partly ironic concerning my enthusiasm on literature and thus my being one of the few students to comment things and theories and catogorisations every time during the lectures, I was very much pleased. I do think I'd have a Hemulen Syndrome had I read all books: in the Moomin book Hemulen had a severe identity crisis when he had collected all possible stamps, i.e. he was no longer a collector but an owner (he cheered up as soon as Mamma suggested he start collecting plants).
Another positive thing that happened today was at the insurance company. A guy there had asked me to visit there to discuss the pension savings programme. I already knew I won't be doing any saving to boost my pension because I'm not planning to stick arounf that long. Now even less after he calculated my estimated pension (after all the taxes AND the procentage of the pension that goes to the state according to our birth year - can you believe it, we are punished for not being born before!): around 800 euros a month. I have only one thing to say about that: FUCK THAT!
It so happened that they invest the savings on four main funds. No hedge funds among those, though, but still, funds. Some of them are of more high risk (and higher profit chances), some less, some are combination funds. Anyway, as a result of the bank course I know quite much on this now (and all the extra information I've seeked on the matter). Turned out my questions were too difficult for the guy to answer. I smiled a little self-righteously when he went to find a collegue who could answer me. I was sniggering inside when he came back with a woman. xD We conversed for a while about the fund types and their investment expectations and possibilities to choose other funds (though they already had one for China, props for that). I did it half on purpose: to make him an outsider, a pariah of the conversation. But seriously, he should know at least the basics of the funds since he sells insurances based on those funds.
Anyway, I achieved my goal: I now know even more reasons why not to live that long. Not to mention that being employed till 63 is pretty much impossible for most people nowadays, especially women. Of course I can understand that starting the savings as early as possible is the best course of action to most people: ten years delay in the saving can make a huge difference. The only positive thing (possibly, I still have to check; I never trust a straight person to be able to *know* this) is that should I die before pension all my savings could be given to my wife/partner; the trust issue is caused by straight persons insistence to regard civil unions equivalent to marriages when they most certainly are not. Not to mention the (un)likelihood of my finding anyone, anyway. Even I won't be naming A girlfriend (capital to indicate non-commitment) as my benefactor.
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 Awwww...
Kirjoitettu: 01.12.2009, 09:40:36 | Oh, so cute! This is a nice way to start a day, I think. :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Bmhjf0rKe8 | |
Happy birthday to me!
Kirjoitettu: 30.11.2009, 17:55:08 | 24 and counting. Had the final meeting with the humanist group and as the mentor asked my age, I announced I'll be 24 in two hours. The rest of the group started signing "Happy Birthday" :) I think I haven't been sung that since fifth grade! It was really nice; cat lifting its own tail but it was worth it.
We all had to wite down one positive thing about each other on their "plates". I got to "honest" markings but I was very perplexed with the four "funny" markings. I've never really considered myself very funny. Sarcastic, yes, but that's mainly meanness towards something or someone. Irony is more neutral and I don't really do that much.. although I did once get an essay back (no grammatical mistakes in three pages!) in which the teacher commented it being ironic; I ended up reading the whole thing through and once finished, wonder where the irony is. I guess I do irony accidentally.
Another thing I got from today's humanist group meeting was something I have to wonder how come I never thought of it myself. The mentor suggested I study advanced mathematics at the local adult high school (not the official name, I think, but the page isn't translated into English so don't know what the "real" name is)! What a fantastic idea! I already know where the school is and have passed it many times, and besides, it would be so much fun. I know her motivation was to give me a boost to pursue my interest in physics (to study physics at higher education, one needs to have marticulated at advanced mathematics, which I didn't do because of the teacher), but I would like it even without that as a motivation. It would be out of pure interest. I just browsed through their website and that's what I'll probably be doing next year! The only remaining question is how long it'll take. I won't take any other subjects so technically I'd have time but would it be allowed to study different courses simultaneously, when in high school these courses would be taught in different years? Have to find out.
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Saw Her today, first time in a very long time. She's still as gorgeous as I remembered if not even more so.. but even though I could admire Her beauty and be aware of the fact that some lucky ones were in the classroom next to me hearing Her provide Her knowledge, that was pretty much all. It would appear I'm finally getting over Her. Almost, though. If She showed up behind my door right now saying She wants to have wild lesbian sex with me right here right now, I wouldn't even consider saying no but I'm happy enough without this happening. As long as She's happy, I don't get to complain. | |
NEVA gimme dat Christian side hug!
Kirjoitettu: 29.11.2009, 19:15:47 (Muokattu: 29.11.2009, 19:19:46) | Ei saatana...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nss-mREqdfg
Imagine a hug. Yeah, that one. It is henceforth banned. Why? Because it brings genitals so close together and thus lures innocent Christian kids to having es ee ex. NO! WE WON'T HAVE ANY OF THAT! That's why you'll be releaved to know that True Christians (TM) have the Answer: the Christian side hug.
Yeah...
I agree with RationalDischarge: "Leave it to fundamentalists to read depravity and moral failure into a completely innocuous, NON-sexual activity." Next they'll be banning touching because that to is an open invitation to having sex. But notice the funny thing: "I'm a rough rider filled with Christ luv." = I am having anal sex without lube with Jay Cee as the top. But front hugging is bad... I suppose only perverts find sexual aspect in a non-sexual activity.
Post scriptum: Also remember to ban mushrooms, bananas (that means you too, Ray darling!), cucumbers, apples, oysters... and bowls and containers and sticks and belts and... let's just all wear full-burkhas regardless of one's gender. But.. but.. but I will know what's underneath! GENITALS! Ooooh.. ahh... I'm.. filled... with Christian love... oohh... No, no, NOOOO! Kill them, kill'em all!!! No other genitals but mine!!!! | |
 Voi millikan minkä teit...
Kirjoitettu: 27.11.2009, 13:05:55 | En näköjään pysty ohittamaan kirjameemiä.
1) Mikä kirja itketti?
'Linnunradan käsikirja' -trilogian kohta kun Marvin kuoli. 'HP ja kuoleman varjelukset' kirja, kun Kalkaros kuoli.
2) Mikä nauratti?
Jotkut kirjat, joita EI kuvata takakannessa ratkiriemukkaiksi, tuppaavat kutittelemaan kieroutuneita nauruhermojani. Tähän kategoriaan eivät siis kuulu esimerkiksi Roddy Doylen 'The Snapper'.
3) Mikä oksetti?
Ks. kysymys kuusi.
4) Mihin henkilöhahmoon samaistuit?
Kalkarokseen ja Marviniin, mistä johtunee heidän kuolemiensa aiheuttama emotionaalinen reaktio. Hothead Paisaniin!
5) Minkä kirjan jätit kesken?
Kynnys jättää huonot kirjat kesken on minulla erittäin korkea, mutta se yksi joka sietokyvyn ylitti... no, en taida mainostaa mokomaa lätyskää.
6) Minkä kirjan toivoisit jättäneesi kesken?
Kaikki ne Sweet Valley High -kirjat, jotka ympäristön paineesta luin ala- ja yläasteen aikana.
7) Minkä kirjan luit uudestaan?
En ole oikeastaan uudelleenlukuihmisiä. Taidan lukea käännöksiä, jolloin sen voisi lukea uudestaan lukemiseksi. No Pottereita on ainakin tullut luettua useampaan kertaan kummallakin kielellä. Ja sitten Stephen Kingin 'Carrien' olen lukenut monta kertaa.
8) Minkä kirjan luit mutta et kehtaa myöntää lukeneesi (paitsi mulle nyt kahden kesken kun vartavasten kysytään)?
Kehtaan myöntää! Kaikki kirjat ovat tutustumisen arvoisia, jotkut jopa lukemisen arvoisia, mutta joka tapauksessa ne ovat osa suurempaa tietoutta omasta kirjallisuustiedostani. Tai no... ne SVH:t on kyllä tökkimisen takana saadakseni myönnettyä, että näitäkin on luettu. Vetoan kuitenkin lieventäviin asianhaaroihin: en tuntenut silloin Simone de Beauvoiria ja olin joukkopaineen alainen!
9) Mitä kirjaa suosittelet?
Virginie Despentes: King Kong -tyttö
Margaret Atwood: The Handmaid's Tale
Emma Donoghue: Kissing the Witch
Carl Sagan: Billions & Billions
Richard Dawkins: The God Delusion
10) Minkä kirjan lukemisesta olet ylpeä (Esim. onko joku ihminen jossain joskus todella lukenut Alastalon salin alusta loppuun, josta kaiketi sopii olla ylpeä)?
Olen ylpeä kaikkien klassikoiden lukemisesta. Eli kun saan 'Tuntemattoman sotilaan' luettua, olen erityisen ylpeä itsestäni. Sama juttu kunhan saan Jane Austenin 'Pride & Prejudicen' luettua (en tosin ihan heti: 3 kuukautta = 17 lukua, eli katsotaan ensi syksynä tilannetta uudelleen...). Ovidiuksen 'Metamorfooseja', Miltonin 'Paradise Lost', Alighierin 'Jumalainen näytelmä', kaikki nämä runomuotoiset järkäleklassikot... niistä kertyy ylpeyspisteitä aika reilusti. | |
Unusually perky, but very much down.
Kirjoitettu: 23.11.2009, 16:19:01 | Again, I managed to bring up the ultimate question in class: gradu. I was wondering where the hell people get their topics and can be pleased with something completely trivial. The teacher's answer very much suggested that writing a gradu for the sake of writing a gradu is a good thing, not to be questioned. I very much disagreed (no surprises here...): seriously, what's the point of doing that? And then of course the subject of justification: why is this topic worth studying? Does it make it justifiable if no one has ever done a study on that? I do understand (with reluctance, though) that a gradu or even a doctorate will not change the world. So why the fuck do I still keep doing this? Because I don't want to be mediocre. I can fail miserably or be the top of the class but I will not be "okay" or "fine"! This leaves a problem: either I learn to think differently or I have to decide whether to graduate at all.
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The revenge of the curse of the social atom:
Back with the humanist group. Miserable. Absolutely depressing. We had to make a list of the top values we want from our careers. Then checking things that apply from a list and thus determine the anchors of the careers. My were (no surprises here either...) independence and balance. When the time came, again, to talk about other people I lost it. No keeping cool, but I just kept going on about not belonging, that I fell alienated from other students, from other people, how I have no idea why people do the things they do. One of the other students asked me an interesting -and what should have been an expected- question: why do I so strongly refuse to go for a job that requires interacting with people? Why do I not like people? And I poured all this out. Now I feel even worse than I did in the beginning of the course; before I was at a loss within the humanist scene, now I'm at a loss within everything because I so clearly should not be a humanist, but to study something systematic, logical, firm, hard sciences. The mentor of the course (really cute, by the way ;D) suggested I should consider certain business areas (...), financing or management, or physics or something like that.
Post scriptum: we also had to write a guided CV. Last question was about special skills. I have none, since ranting and raving are not included as such. Ended up writing the first seventy digits of pi on the lines. So sad. | |
 This is getting really weird...
Kirjoitettu: 19.11.2009, 17:19:24 | So. Not only do I know find myself surrounded by intelligent, funny, beautiful and sexy women, or notice all the nice little things, or have a magnified tendency to like things (!), but now I'm also browsing through the webpages of the University of Amsterdam and NOT feeling anxious about the possibility of studying literature there and perhaps staying there for a longer time than the two years the degree takes.
I repeat: This is getting really weird! | |
Designing my universe.
Kirjoitettu: 18.11.2009, 12:38:24 (Muokattu: 18.11.2009, 12:40:41) | Got Epica's two latest albums on mail yesterday. They can be described with two words: ingenious and fantastic. Listening to 'Design Your Universe' and especially 'Unleashed' and 'Martyr of the Free Word'. They make shivers run down my spine, and give me goosepumps. I now have an idea what aural orgasm means (some critic use the term when describing his experience of Nightwish's 'Once'). Extra credit for the unique art work done for the album's booklet. Not many are willing to spend time, energy and money for those in these times of electronic downloads.
And The Classical Conspiracy is just bloody great. I remember reading one of Tuomas Holopainen's interviews in which he said it would be interesting to do concerts with a live orchestra. Sorry, mate, but Epica did it first. And I love the sound of their songs that way, but even more I enjoy the symphonic metal versions of some of the most famous classical pieces and movie orchestrations. These include Verdi, Vivaldi and so on. Right now I'm, again, listening to The Imperial March from Star Wars V. It reminds me of the fun I had when playing the Lego Star Wars game where they had done a heavy metal version of this same song. ;) The first Lego SW game had a techno version of the song! :) The Pirates of the Caribbean medley is fantastic, too!
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Help! I'm turning into a straight male!... almost.
Kirjoitettu: 16.11.2009, 17:19:23 | Fuck. My meds are either having a very odd side-effect way too late, or it's starting to work. From gloomy Burtonesque underworld to sunshine where one cannot but notice all those intelligent, funny, beautiful and sexy women. I'd say that I'm almost turning into a straight male; unlike them, I have no problem respecting women and treating them accordingly. Nor do I think too much of myself; I'm no centre of the universe (except maybe in The Other World) and I'm nowhere near delusional enough to believe I'm irresistable and thus push myself on them.
Post scriptum: Wow. Started out as a positive blogging, ended up spitting on men again. Damn, I'm good! ;) | |
If the end of the world arrived in two years...
Kirjoitettu: 13.11.2009, 21:24:14 | Massa just blogged about the prediction of the end of the world coming in December 2012. I remember this same thing from sixth grade history lessons. Now, it's actually been argued by historians to have been a miscalculations (different mathematical systems and ortography does pose a possible mistake). Especially now that Emmerich has done yet another EndOfTheWorld movie (he has a fetish on the apocalypso, doesn't he?) I'm even less prone to believe in it. Not to mention that the Mayan calendar's end doesn't mean the world is about to end? Sounds like quite a leap there.
Anyway, I started to play the game "What if..?" What if the world did end for some reason in 2012? The first thing to come to mind was, surprise surprise, sex. I would like to have sex before that. And not just any sex: good sex. No point in having bad sex and then die. That's pretty much the only thing I'd like to do. Actually, no. I'd also like to kill some guy who deserved it. I have quite a few candidates for that already. What else? Well, I'd be sorry for not having read all the books I would've wanted to read. Perhaps it would have been nice to have had a glimpse of love, too, though I still argue I'm too damaged for that. That's about it. Since I don't have friends, no need to say goodbye to anyone, I suppose. Except my cousin; I'd like to see her one more time. | |
Intelligence to the power of...
Kirjoitettu: 09.11.2009, 17:00:24 | You have got to watch this! The Intelligence Squared Debate on the topic "Is the Catholic Church a force for good in the world?"
http://www.youtube.com/view_play_list?p=F821DBF3CE3374A3
(Five parts, each about 10 minutes long)
For: a Nigerian Archbishop with really fancy clothing and jewelry & a British conservative female politician who converted into Catholicism after the Anglican church started to ordain women as pastors
Against: a very well-know British writer and journalist & a very well-known (and along with the previous, one of the few men I can respect) British actor
I was against before and now I'm even more against.
http://www.intelligencesquared.com/
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